I've been really bored lately...   Even bored enough to not update my blog, lol.  But I guess I'm doing it now, lol.  Well my valentines day was boring...  I was going to go out with my friend Xi, but she had to go to L.A.  for the weekend.  So I spent it alone....again...  We were supposed to go to the movies, the go to I.B. for a while.  You know, walk on the beach, and talk and stuff.  And get some pizza at this pne really good pizza shop.  But yeah, i didn't...  I really wanted to go out though..  Hah, well ill update later, when iI'm not as sad as I am now.  Byebye :-)

I had a good childhood up until i moved to Imperial Beach.  I remember that my mom and dad would always fight.  I remember the night when my mom and dad were fighting, and my dad was taking all of his stuff.  He had met a woman named Denise.  That was his new girlfriend.  Then we lived at her house.  The only real friends i had were tow kids named Ben and Jessica.  We would always hangout together.  Some of my worst of my memories was when I live across the street from the surfing store.  There would be so many nights where I had to go woth out food because there was none in our small apartment.  When we did have food, I had to make some for myself.  Just remember that i was only nine years old at the time.  I don't even remember going to school that much.  There was this one time where I wnet to Jessica's house to watch a scary movie.  Ben was there too.  I was there for a long time, then I got a call from my dad.  He was mad.  When i got to the house, he hit me.  I cried for a while.  He said that I was not allowed to go there.  I think he was drunk.  And I also remember once when he ordered some pizza.  I was outside talking to Jessica, and then my dad came outside, and threw a pizza crust at my face.  It hurt. Alot.  He shouted at me, and told me to clean up the mess.  I cleaned for a long time.  Sometimes he would lock me out of the house, and I would have to go to his friends house to stay the night.  Then, when I would go back home in the morning to get ready for school, he still would not let me go.  I would just play at the beach all day by myself.  Well thats enough for right now.  I'll post more later.  Bye. 

Today went well.  First period went by very fast, we just had to go around and learn the tools.  Second period was boring, but went fast too becuase i took a little nap, lol.  Third perod was good as usual.  And fourth period was a breeze :)   I ran two laps around the tarck, then on the third lap, me and my friend Ricky ran one side of the bleachers.  Then after that my class played football.  We had to pick new taems, but they were almost exactly the same!  lol.  It was still fun though. :) 

Love, where are you?  It seems as if you have been running away from me.  Sometimes  I think that I will never find you.  Where are you when I gaze up at the night sky, filled with stars?  I look, and hope that you are looking at the same star that I am.  Where are you when im walking in the rain, wishing you'd be there at my side, holding my hand?  It's almost like a game of hide-and-seek, but goes on perpetually.  I hope I can feel your love and warmth soon, where ever you are.  I hope to find you soon.  Sigh.  As you might know, Valentines Day is coming up.  I hate this day...  For me, no one to care for.  No one to hold.  No one to love and keep close to my heart... I always see couples walking, holding hands.  I wish that would be me with someone I loved.  I see them, hugging, and kissing passionately.  Then I remember that I have no girl to love.  I don't know why it is so hard for me to find a nice girl.  I sit here, and take a long, depressing sigh.  Love is a wonderful feeling.  I hope to be in it soon.  I hope you like my entry.

It was a dark, gloomy day today.  The sky was ominous and grey.  A cool breeze blowing through the air.  I stopped picking some calamanci for my mom, and looked at the dark sky above me.  In all of its depressing appearance, it was a beautiful sight.  I stood there, and smiled, gazing at the Mexican horizon to the south.  Strangely enough, I'm always at my happiest on cloudy days.  It would be even better if i had someone to look at it with.  It was very relaxing too, because I could also smell the ocean air.  It was then first time I smelt it from so far away.  Imperial Beach.  I used to live there, right across the street from the  beach.  Whenever I go back to I.B. so many memories come back to me.  Good and bad.  It's so overwhelming.  Last night and early this morning were some of the best times I've ever had.  I talked to my jiejie for a long time.  :)  I went to sleep at 2AM.  Then I woke up again at 5AM, and talked to my jiejie again.  It was so fun.  Haha, we even played hangman and tic tac toe.  Then it became late for her, so she went to sleep.  A few hours later, we come back to me outside, picking the fruits.  After that I had to trim the plants on the side of the house.  It became even darker outside.  I was still in high spirits, though.  I hoped it would rain.  That is my favorite kind of weather...